Healing from the Trauma of Peacekeeping.

Intro -- HEALING FROM THE TRAUMA OF PEACEKEEPING -- HEALING FROM THE TRAUMA OF PEACEKEEPING -- CONTENTS -- PREFACE -- BIOGRAPHY -- COMING TO THE QUESTION -- INTRODUCTION -- RESEARCHING FROM EXPERIENCE -- The Story of Jane -- The Story of Daniel -- REVIEW OF THE LITERATURE -- The Vietnam War and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) -- THE STUDIES ON CONTEMPORARY PEACEKEEPERS -- THE STUDIES ON HEALING FROM TRAUMA -- LIMITATIONS OF THE STUDIES -- LITERARY SOURCES -- Lived Body (Corporeality) -- Lived Space (Spatiality) -- Lived Human Relation (Relationality or Communality) -- Lived Time (Temporality) -- METHODOLOGY -- HERMENEUTIC PHENOMENOLOGY AS THE APPROPRIATE METHODOLOGY -- EMBODIMENT AND HERMENEUTIC PHENOMENOLOGICAL RESEARCH -- METHODS -- Data Sources: Collecting the Data -- THE PEACEKEEPERS -- Luke -- James -- Matt -- Paul -- Mary -- Peter -- Simon -- Thomas -- John -- Tim -- THE CONVERSATIONS -- ANALYZING THE DATA -- EVALUATING A PHENOMENOLOGICAL INQUIRY -- ETHICAL CONSIDERATIONS -- Informed Consent -- Confidentiality and Anonymity -- Ethical Sensitivity -- SIGNIFICANCE -- DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE - BEING IN THE WORLD OF PEACEKEEPING -- FALLING DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE: TRANSITIONS IN SITUATEDNESS -- In The Rabbit Hole: An Oasis -- What Latitude or Longitude I've Got To? -- Jumping into the Hell Hole -- Going to the Hobbit House -- The Caucus Race -- The Rabbit Hole: Sights, Sounds and Smells -- Debriefing the Rabbit Hole: The Pits -- Debriefing the Rabbit Hole: The Old Vets -- Too Radical Extremes -- THE MILITARY FAMILY -- The Strings to Your Family are Undone -- Tightening of the Military Family Bond -- THE CENTRALITY OF BROTHERHOOD AND GRIEVING LOSS IN THE MILITARY FAMILY -- My Brothers: Closer than my Own Brother -- That Was a Pretty Glorious Moment -- It is All So Connected, the Old Vets, the Old War and the More Recent Ones.

Suicide of a Brother in the Military Family -- Suicide in the Family: The Military Response -- The Airborne Disbanded: They Ripped your Family Away -- The Airborne is Bad: That's Your Family -- The Somalia Inquiry: They Disbanded the Airborne -- Adding Insult to Injury -- Shunned: Another Stigma Attached -- The Government has Washed their Hands of Me -- The Government is Embarrassed into Giving a Medal: Recognized, Not Recognized -- THE POOL OF TEARS: LIVING THE UNPRESENTABLE -- Rules of Engagement: The Things that Restrict You -- Cambodia: Why Doesn't it Matter? -- Haiti: The Have Nots -- Reconciling Good and Evil -- What's Fair, What's Just, What's the Right Thing to Do? -- Evil Is Inhuman Machines? -- There is No God. There is No Devil -- What's Happened? Its Hatred -- Hatred that's Difficult to Comprehend -- The Church: How Does that Make Sense? -- The School: How Could You Call Yourself a Person? -- How Do You Make Sense? You Don't Make Sense of it -- This is Senseless: Its Chaos -- It Makes No Sense -- All of a Sudden the World Opens up -- What The Hell Is Going on Here: This is Not a War! -- Soldiers Should be Revered -- The other Side of Insanity -- Turning into Them -- Chaos: From Spitting Out Your Gum to Genocide -- SUFFERING FROM THE TRAUMA OF PEACEKEEPING -- DISRUPTION IN THE UNIFYING THREAD OF TEMPORALITY WHEN SUFFERING FROM THE TRAUMA OF PEACEKEEPING -- Ten Seconds was More Like Ten Hours -- I'm not Seeing White Because All the UN Vehicles are White -- I Literally Live in Africa: Physically I'm Right Here, but my Mind isn't -- The Seconds Stuck Like Hours and Part of Me Stayed over There -- Untitled -- There's a Loss of Time -- Running out of Time: I Need to Hide that -- Trauma Speeds up the Process of Getting Old -- THE CENTRALITY OF THE BODY IN SUFFERING FROM TRAUMA -- It's Almost Like Eyeing Yourself from the Outside.

Totally Numb to it -- It Didn't Feel Real: I Left my Body -- I'm Living it All in my Head to Keep the Feelings out -- You Can't Deal with it. You Just Shut it Down and Go -- I'm Almost Used to it Now: I'm Numb to it Now -- Suppressing Feelings not Giving Them their Due: Like Swallowing Poison -- I Couldn't Feel my Feet Touching the Ground -- Emotional Numbing is "Normal" for Me -- In Civilian Life, You Really Do have to Have Feelings -- The Often Cold Emotions: To Dissociate the Emotions, the Feelings -- It Burnt All of those Emotions -- THE MILITARY RESPONSE: TRAUMA FROM WITHIN -- RELEASE FROM THE MILITARY: DOWN THE RABBIT HOLE -- Shunned: The Family Doesn't Want You Any More -- It's Like Saying Ignore Your Family: It Will Never be Integrated Until There's Closure -- You're Broken: You're in the Land of Unloved Toys -- What Does it Do? It Re-Traumatizes -- It's Almost as if they Feel Other People Will Catch it: Like Germs -- Who Stole the Tarts? The Trial -- The Whole Process: Why Do We Have to Be Judged? -- What are the Questions to Ask? -- If I Had Lost an Arm or a Leg: It Would Be an Honorable Injury -- The Wound Stripe: It Means A Lot -- OTHER PARTICIPANTS' RELEASE: THE MILITARY CULTURE BREAKS THE BOND -- The Military was My Home -- They Sever the Strings -- The Certifiable Crazy Card: My Career is Over -- What it Comes Down to is Respect -- It's the Fault of these People Not Coming Forward -- They're in the Stone Age -- You Still Have to be Very Careful about Coming Forward: I was Almost Released -- I Was Being Tagged: It was not a Great Environment to Work in -- If I Did Come out then That's a Red Flag -- He Was Just a Good Boss: I Was Lucky -- HEALING FROM THE TRAUMA OF PEACEKEEPING: THE BODY REMEMBERS -- What my Body was Feeling -- The Smell: It Just Brought it All Back -- An Electric Shock Went up my Spine.

I Got this Heaving Feeling in my Crotch -- The Legion and the Liquor Board of Ontario: Their Only Outlet -- The Body Holds the Memories -- The Skin Holds Memories: It Holds All of the Trauma -- It Brought Back Some Bad Memories -- It Smelled the Same Way -- I Feel Like I'm Back there -- There are All Kinds of Things that Still Trigger Me -- Later the Feelings will Come -- What is Healing? : I'm Trying to Reach a New Normal -- TO FEEL IS TO HEAL -- I Never Push a Memory Away: I Don't See the Sense In Running Away -- To Get over the Fears of these Memories -- I Can Have the Bad Feelings: To Work through Them at a Comfortable Level -- This Might be as Good as it Gets and this is Pretty Good -- They Never Talked about it -- Catch Phrases Like Cowardice -- They Physically Manifest what they Emotionally Experienced -- Vimy: An Extension -- RECOVERY CAN'T BEGIN WITHOUT SUPPORT ESPECIALLY FROM THE MILITARY FAMILY -- I'm Still Dealing with the Loss -- It is About Loss: I Haven't Grieved Yet -- They Have To Recognize what they are Responsible for -- TREATMENT APPROACHES: HEALING THE POOL OF TEARS -- OPERATIONAL STRESS INJURY SOCIAL SUPPORT (OSISS): MAKING SENSE OUT OF NONSENSE -- Not Everything is PTSD -- A Double Edged Sword -- It's Still an Issue of Vulnerability -- It Was Very Cathartic -- The Biggest Thing is Membership -- Knowing that You're Not Different: It has Helped Me -- These Guys are the Same as Me -- Helping Each other: It's Like a Snowball Effect -- A Change in Military Culture -- FORWARD MARCH -- "INJURED" BY GERTRUDE KEARNS -- THE METAPHOR OF ALICE IN WONDERLAND -- THE CENTRALITY OF TIME AND THE BODY IN SUFFERING AND HEALING FROM TRAUMA -- THE CENTRALITY OF BROTHERHOOD AND GRIEVING LOSS IN THE MILITARY FAMILY -- THE MILITARY RESPONSE AS BETRAYAL AND CREATING TRAUMA FROM WITHIN -- IMPLICATIONS FOR NURSING PRACTICE, EDUCATION AND FUTURE RESEARCH.

RECOMMENDATIONS FOR THE MILITARY -- CONCLUSION -- REFERENCES -- INDEX.

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